"My first Christmas in Heaven"

I see the countless

Christmas trees

around the world below

With tiny lights, like Heaven's stars,

reflecting on the snow

The sight is so spectacular,

please wipe away the tear

For I am spending Christmas with

Jesus Christ this year.

I hear the many Christmas songs

that people hold so dear

But the sounds of music can't compare

with the Christmas choir up here.

I have no words to tell you,

the joy their voices bring,

For it is beyond description,

to hear the angels sing.

I know how much you miss me,

I see the pain inside your heart.

But I am not so far away,

We really aren't apart.

So be happy for me, dear ones,

You know I hold you dear.

And be glad I'm spending Christmas

with Jesus Christ this year.

I sent you each a special gift,

from my heavenly home above.

I sent you each a memory

of my undying love.

After all, love is a gift more precious

than pure gold.

was always most important

the stories Jesus told.

Please love and keep each other,

my Father said to do.

I can't count the blessing or love

has for each of you.

So have a Merry Christmas and

Wipe away that tear

Remember, I am spending Christmas with

Jesus Christ this year

Christmas was a little different this year. It felt like I was just going through the motions. I have been struggling with my faith a bit lately, so I wasn't really in the celebrating mood. Don't get me wrong, I am very thankful for what I have. I know I am beyond blessed to have a wonderful husband, 2 perfect children, and a large loving family, but I am still missing someone. The poem above was given to my by my step-mother, Dianne, for Christmas and I have to admit that it dulls the pain a little bit. Knowing that Tami is somewhere so wonderful makes me feel better. I don't know if anyone else noticed, but in the midst of our Christmas travels Peter stopped to point out the sunset. It was beautiful! The sky was a gorgeous grey and pink swirl with orange accents. I stopped for what seemed like forever, but was probably only a moment, and my heart warmed a bit. I know it was beautiful from here on earth, but imagine what it might have looked like from Heaven.

I hope all of you had a wonderful Christmas and gave extra hugs to those you love today.

(I know this was a bit of a depressing post so I promise to follow it with the best part of my Christmas!)